The God of your understanding is just that: the God of your understanding. What you need is the god just beyond your understanding.
I read this to suggest: Go as far as you can, and then a little further. But only a little. Further than your current concept of god, of your current understanding of mercy, of the future you imagine for yourself, of the world you want to live in.
Somewhere between today’s version and something unimaginably ideal lies the zone of Just Beyond.
Practice: Imagine what advancing toward your heart’s desire might look like. (If it shapeshifts, take a deep breath, and allow the picture to come into focus. This can take minutes; it can take years.)
Advanced practice: Take a you-sized step toward Just Beyond.